Anxiety & Spin – 11/14/22

Anxiety

Today ended up being pretty stressful, and I had so much anxiety that I took a coma nap to deal with it. To make a long story short – there was a dental emergency with my youngest daughter. And I felt upset that she had to experience a dental trauma (she hates the dentist), and I did not have the money to cover the bill out-of-pocket due to a change in insurance and the office not being able to verify our new insurance.

I also cheated on my ketogenic diet and ate carbohydrate-rich foods that led me to feel unwell. That certainly did not help the anxiety! The ketogenic diet has helped my anxiety immensely.

Distraction

After waking up from the coma nap, I distracted myself by doing some chores around the apartment. I put on my headphones and just enjoyed a variety of songs, including Christmas ones! My late sister loved Christmas music as much as I, so it was comforting to start listening to it a bit earlier in the season than usual.

Improving the Moment

I decided to tap into some Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) skills and look for ways to improve the moment. I asked myself,

If you did not have anxiety at this moment, what would you enjoy doing?

I mentally acknowledged that I would enjoy reading the new Kindle book that I bought, Atomic Habits by James Clear. I’m not an Amazon affiliate so this link is purely for reference if you are interested.

While reading Atomic Habits I thought of how I really needed to get back on the spin bike to burn off some carbohydrates, and I worried that I would feel too euphoric before bedtime. The book says goals are not the main focus, changing how you view yourself is, and the process of daily habits builds over time. I realized that I have been fearful of mania, so I avoid riding the bike most evenings if I miss a morning workout. It turns out that riding the bike brought me relief from the anxiety I had been feeling. My muscles feel warm and tired. I did hold back on some all-out efforts to avoid euphoria, and I think that helped.

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