Sunday
Sunday morning, I went to Walmart. It was 9 degrees, and I only wore my thin pajamas. My pajamas have little dogs on them; the dogs are wearing winter scarves and Santa hats. I didn’t feel like changing out of my pajamas for the entire day, so I went to both Walmart and the cinema in them! It was wonderful to take a pajama day!
Black Panther Wakanda Forever
The girls and I went to see Black Panther Wakanda Forever. We loved it. I won’t spoil it here, but it is a great movie. I loved all of the leading ladies; they were strong in their individual ways.
Art Store
The art store that my daughters work at is closing. I thought I would still be able to paint a pottery ornament yesterday, but that was the day they were moving out pottery inventory. I wish I had not been so exhausted after work Saturday, because that ended up being the last day that I could have painted something with the girls for the holidays.
We are really sad about the store closing. I enjoyed making pottery there. My oldest daughter bought me a pottery throwing class, and we did it together. I also wanted to paint something. Where we live there are few interesting places to go, and I think it will be a loss for the community here. The store had great patron support, but there are sometimes issues with the location itself that can cause problems.
Today, Monday
I have so much to do today. I hope my youngest daughter can help with some of the chores as she is out of school for the week due to the upcoming Thanksgiving holiday.
Anxiety
I experienced some anxiety this morning that was really uncomfortable. I would ride the spin bike to manage it, but I have a lot of physical activity planned for the day in the form of cleaning-and possibly a ginormous laundry load day at the laundromat.
I think my anxiety stems from fear that I am actually feeling happy and optimistic about life and possibilities at work, and in my personal life. Some part of me feels undeserving of this happiness, and another part of me is afraid that it will not last. The latter is particularly challenging. I know life has its ups and downs, but I guess I feel emotionally greedy or something and I never want this moment in my life to end. I think a lot of it is realizing that both girls are moving into adulthood. And that brings uncertainty for me in many ways. Working has helped me to have something to focus on and look forward to in the future.
Wrapping Up
I am enjoying my days off from working. I feel happy and renewed. But I hope that doing all these chores today won’t exhaust me.
